pen_chant

02:19 am

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL

Sorry this is long, I do not know how to LJ CUT nemore.

So it is about time i update about the past year. I guess in most way it was not the best year ever, but of course it had its highlights.

JANUARY-
Highlight: Rents leaving for my mom's birthday, and I had PLENTY of time doing stupid things that I never thought I would do. Enough said there. I remember actually cleaning my room and chilling with Wowy. Alec left CS and Jen bough her own in Santa Clara so we were manager less for a while.
Crappy Part: Where all the drama bullshit started actually HAPPENING.
FEBRUARY-
Highlight: Turning 18 with a birthday breakfast with the best friend [ at the time ] and recieving surprises from the bf. My rents actually bought me my "NEW CAR", even if I did get into an accident exactly a week later. Actually having a real Valentine, and going to the Matchbook Romance concert one of my favorite concerts that I've gone to. My lip piercing that I've wanted since my brother got his eyebrow done, achieved one of my goals. Eating out with my parents and them not really flipping out over it too.
Crappy Part: Getting into my first accident with my brand new baby. The other drama that occured during my actual birthday.
MARCH-
Highlight: Iris' party where I had a nice talk with Krystle. Talked to Paul Rojas about 1/2 the time while watching Harold and Kumar where my mom came and made everything as awkward as things can get. Met plenty of her friends and became friends with Mary who I saw the other day. I'm pretty sure this is when I began doing cakes at CS. Lost my wisdom by getting my wisdom teeth pulled out during spring break.
Crappy Part: Missed out on a concert that I want to kill my bf for. Had to go to work looking like a chipmunk. Oh and Sadies which ended horribly for me.
APRIL-
Highlight: Bf's birthday that I took him out to breakfast and was late for it. But I gave him tons of candy that he enjoyed during the rest of the school year. I think it was fifteen new cats became the new Coldstoners and all the old people left. I became the official cake maker while being promoted to shiftleader at the same time. Spent all my time either at work or at bf's casa while somehow managing to keep up with homework. Where the rising action of the CS employees began getting close, as seen during Make-A-Wish [MAW] day arrived. Got my TREGAS PIERCING that I never could get since I wanted it since FRESHMAN YEAR!
Crappy Part: My bf was a big asshole for certain things. I think I got in trouble for the stupid pranks I tried to play. I really began my hate for my rents and even worse became further away from the best friends. This could even be the part where the first disagreement began. BIG DRAMA during MAW day while I was on the phone my brother was actually being a brother.
MAY-
Highlight: School just about ended. I spent most of the time working and at his place. I decided to try out SFSU, even if it did turn out to be such a waste of MY OWN money. My first TBS show at SCU which thanks to the ex, I had tons of fun. Thank you.
Crappy Part: Yearbook turned out to be shitty and disappointed the whole school. Began to realize I've lost practically ALL my friends. And even more pathetically I did not really care much about reviving any of the friendships I was losing. I actually saw the worse part of my family, and I did not care.
JUNE-
Highlight: Graduating and the many events at the end of MAY including Senior ball, grad night, bacc. mass. and the party that I bonded with my aunts once again. Spending ALL my time with bf. Going to LC and seeing Adi and Nick. I actually had plenty of folk remember me even if it was not as much as others.
Crappy Part: Missing LC for trying to rekindle the friendship that ended up shattered anyway. Going to orientation and having the optimistic feeling while in the back of my mind I knew I would hate SFSU. Going to eat at IN N OUT and seeing the huge gap between us. Did not get to see Jamiy or Cathy who I wish I could've caught up with.
JULY-
Highlight: FUN DAY!! Going to Santa Cruz with the CSers that I became ever so close to. Fun times with Emily. Found out the store was SOLD to Rosie and Avtar. All the ppl I did not like were FIRED, I was too but atleast I ended up HIRED! Worked my butt off almost every day. Got my TONGUE PIERCING I promised myself. Even if I had to get it done twice, I love it. Visited the cousins on the 4th of July, came home to nothing. Went on a road trip to Santa Monica with Mike and his family. Saw the SDSU campus, Disneyland and went on a shopping spree in the prominade. Ate tons of crepes and went swimming several times.
Crappy Part: Mike left to Hawaii for a week which I thought was the complete end to everything [I said this differently then it really is]. Had to get the tongue done 2X, advice to all DO NOT GET A PIERCING AT ZEBRAS! If you must, get the guy and not the lame ass girl.
AUGUST-
Highlight: Spent loads of time going out to albertsons, mall, raging waters, and ate at Elephant bar and plenty of other restaraunts. The USED concert that I will remember everything about, it was awesome. My first GIANTS game that has me hooked and I can't wait 'til I can go back. Went to my first day of college and the wonderful bf came with me and WALKED ME TO CLASS!
Crappy Part: He left me for the white bitches and hoes. Started school but had something to cheer me up.
SEPTEMBER-
Highlight: School was rather easy, made few friends, began work in San Mateo. I loved how I had 1 class MWF and had tons of FREE time. I made loads of money which I spent every other week when he came back. He actually came back about every other weekend. He kept his part which surprised me vey much. I worked my butt off and got some A's on my first couple of essays. Nat and I carpooled some time during the week and we became pretty cool. Met her bf, Snake, who I hope everything is ok w//them.
Crappy Part: The start of a distance relationship that I promised myself I would not do ever again. Began commutting by myself so I wasted tons of money. Problems still occurred because of me.
OCTOBER-
Highlight: Rents and brother went away, giving me one "lonely" weekend. School continued to suck and had a great 1 anny. doing plenty of things I loved. The bf is really amazing. Met up with people during the homecoming game.
Crappy Part: Didn't get anything for the 1 anny. I found out a lot about friendships and stuff. I never realized how shady people could be and even more how much I just gave up myself.
NOVEMBER-
Highlight: Turkey day with family I really began to miss. Played Pictionary and had too much fun making fun of family. Got a new haircut that was long overdue. It may be unusual but I LOVE IT!
Crappy Part: Didn't see bf for a whole month but it was fun when I did for a full 4 days. Had to struggle with the commute, work and homework. I began reaching the bottom all time low.
DECEMBER-
Highlight: School finally ended and I passed most of my classes. Got an IPOD for Christmas and a few little gifts that I appreciate so much. I bough tons of new items for myself. I even bought tons of gifts. More than expected. I loved spending TONS of time with the family and seeing bf after all of it.
Crappy Part: Family still sucks but I'm trying my best.

Overall, I am not pleased with my year but in the end I have had many accomplishments and had a new and exciting adventure each day. I am happy to say that I did live my life to the fullest as much as I could. I just hope I do the same this year.

Items I left out- Sharon, the woman I feel so close to and have non stop conversations with. She's over 40 and lives on the border of Oakland. I miss not working with her but being able to has helped me in so many ways.


more later

10:47 pm

so for the first time in 2 weeks .. michael came back from sd .. this weekend was filled with eating plenty of food (i've been starving because he was the only one who fed me) and watching tons of movies. at work we closed at 1050 and i clocked out but 1101 when we close at 1100. we are so good. sharon made megan calvin and i corn, mac n cheese and for the girls, salmon and since clavin hates fish she bought him bbq chicken. it was DELICIOUS !! she can really really cook. i love it. she's like a mom to me now. i can tell her almost everything and she really understands me. and even if she disagrees she tells me to be careful and she even tells me about her life experiences. i love how she listens to me when i yell and curse. and i love how easy it is to talk to her. and most of all i love how she is a great manager who does plenty of work and even helps customers !! nehoots. after dropping her off at her house in oakland, i surprisingly found my way to AMTRAK. i picked up the boy that i missed sooo much and took him home. i got home probably around 1240 and my rents didn't bitch. i was glad. i showered and then talked to him for a bit. it was nice to see his mom and sister again too. i miss going to his house and lying on his comfy and warm bed. his tv was still in his room and his room was very clean. although he arrived at 1100 and i picked him up by 1130 it was nice to see him, even if he was mad. i love him so very much.

sat. he called me telling me to go to his house. but instead i waited 'til 900 to get ready. i pretended to go to work because i was scared and had no other way of leaving the house, then i went to his house. we ate and watched tv. then we decided to watch a movie. i watched lilo and stitich while he was on his sister's laptop messing w//his ipod. he also brought out some disney movies. we saw cinderella and i started watching peter pan. it was fun. then we got ready went to nat's house and then we went to regal. i bought ANOTHER purse and then a skirt. i like both of them. then we saw the exorcism of emily rose. i liked it. i thought it was clever and somewhat scary. we got out around 930 then we dropped off my car at my house then he took me back to his. we then spent the night watching peter pan again cause we didn't finish it. we fell asleep then he brought me home around 1230.

today was scary. i had one of the worse dreams i could possibly have. it was horrible. i hated it. and i hated the fact that i hated the person in it. i hate them. i hope they get what they deserve. it really made me toss and turn. even worse, each time i fell asleep my dream continued. i can only recall one dream that has ever continued. so pretty much it freaked me out really bad. the reast of the day we spent in his room and eating bbq. his mom fed us A LOT !! i love her food.i don't know how he can live w//out it. nehoots. i slept a whole lot of the day. he got tickets to comeback 10/07 and hopefully for our 11 months but for sure our 1 year. we left his house by 430 and got to amtrak by 500.. said our goodbyes. and that was it ..

i've had so much fun with him. we did so much this summer raging waters about 6 times, went to the used concert, a giants game, we even went to berekley. he finished his tattoo which turned out perfect. and more. i love you so much.

goodnight.

07:19 pm - weird ..

so i guess that's it .. he said he lost his phone and he really hasn't taken any chance to call me or even to try to get a hold of me .. it's only been about a week and everything is gone.. i do miss him .. to a certain extent .. but i haven't cried in about 3-4 days .. it sucks but my life goes on and so does his .. i'm not going to do it and i can't .. so i won't .. and i'm not .. it sucks but at the same time i guess this is how life works out .. sharon told me i will find someone and that he will treat me just the way i want to be treated .. and much as i wish that he was that person .. he's not .. he already hurt me so much once .. and it's better that things are this way .. in the words of PC "i'm over it" .. all of it .. i'm okay for now and even if i can't say that i don't long for everything .. i'm a bit relieved that i will not stress myself everyday like i did.. it's not healthy for me and beside that .. the relationship wasn't healthy in the first place..

i hung up on him today and i felt really really bad .. but if he really wanted things to be okay he would be callin me off the hook and trying to work things out .. i think he thinks it's another game but it's not ..but it's okay .. he can do whatever he wants.. cause i am .. i haven't been free in a long time .. it's a bit lonely but atleast i won't fear for heartbreak this time .. he's out there.. he just hasn't found me yet ...

all done ..

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12:41 am - just for future references

what i've been waiting for

went down to santa monica w//michael and his family. went to disneyland, the beach sorta, prominade and his orientation.. update coming soon.

goodbye

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06:51 pm - "the first star i see may NOT be a star"

to be continued ...

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12:52 pm - STOLEN !

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09:13 pm - meeting ..

so the meeting yest. was basically letting us know that lily sold the store to ROSIE the owner of newpark .. at first i was sad and kinda disapointed but mostly scared. i was sad thinking that i would not be working with the same people and the fact that we now have management and there would be no more times of just chilling in the backroom making jokes about jewey and the nazi. today i worked for a while, i think rosie is the best person to sell the store to. Her and her husband seem to care so much about cleaning it up and making it the best Coldstone possible. and that has really boosted up my excitement for working there. I love how she is okay to joke around with and that we are able to keep up our pictures including the "triangle of hot love" Kylie tore up her picture that we put up and thankfully because there have been so many people in there staring at them. HAHAHAHA. that's fucking hilarious. We are getting 5 new people including Eesha Gupta and Rob Chen. I kinda hate that there are so many people that i know just because that's like my family. but i'm excited for the change and even more excited that those that i felt should have been gone will most likley be. I'm glad that Rosie is extremely nice and Jorie put in a good word for me and the rest of the "good" people. [[ - ALBERTO ]]. I'm so excited by all the new items that we got including CAKE SUPPLIES!! The quality of the cakes that i do have gone down so much. I hate that. I feel like i suck at them now. But i think it's just that the ice cream is too soft since our blast is broken.

I worked in San Mateo on Monday. WHoo full day of nothing and putting signs up in their store. Too bad EJ was there to protect ours and the bitch Dana and some other chick were nice enough to clean up Jerwyn's unoriginal mess was really nice. I took Matt and Emily and we had an adventure. It was great. We went shopping for Candy and we saw a movie for FREE!! Madagascar was fucking AWESOME! I loved it. I loved even more how the San Mateo fun day sucked "big hair mommy ass" while Hayward's had to end because people did not want to drive home tired and others had to be back early.

Tuesday was the fun day filled with memories. Going to Santa Cruz was the best idea ever! We went on so many rides, it was great. I loved how we were sepearated for a while but when we came into one big group we had so much fun. We were able to get a discount on lasertag too! I had 2550 as my score. That was great. I seriously feel that Coldstone is a family and that's great! Last year I remember at the first meeting, there were so many cliques. There was one that reminded me completely of Moreau then the "new kids" and then other people. And "FUN DAY" just brought everyone that much closer. It sucks that Tawny missed it and some others.

And the best part of it is that all the girls who work there have boyfriends and no FRIENDS!! whoo !! that means that we're all the same. So i am no longer a loner with no friends, i have plenty. I love how every single one of us get a long so well. And there have convinced me to stick around. So i'm guessing that I will no be moving to S.F. and that I will turn out to be like Jorie and stay with Coldstone. ERG! damn you COOL people that have made my summer so much fun. And i'm so glad it's not over just yet.

Anyhoo. Michael is in Hawaii for a while. It makes me sad but I will be on my way to LALALALALALAL .. LA. So I will be occupied 'til Monday. My rents are selling the "red car" aka the "leopard car" as EJ calls it. [[ And EJ, Chito and Katherine for sure will no longer be with Coldstone. UGH! ]] Somewhat sad and kinda excited for the new folk. This has been making me think WAY too much. Nehoots. I'm excited to see my fat cousin and her brother who hopefully will take me to get my piercing. WHOO !! I'll maybe get something random but if not i'm getting my TONGUE DONE!! FOR SURE in the next 2 weeks.

I talked to Mike during work. I'm glad Rosie is okay with me kinda being on the phone. She did not say anything when I was talking to him. That felt alright. But I miss him so much. And I'm sad that this is the first glimpse of what the next year or 10 months will be like. UGH!!! I'm going to go crazy, it's for sure.

BTW: payday is now 5th and 20th!! UGH !! 2 days a month .. that sucks ass. But i will be getting my last check from Lily soon. I have atleast 30.00 hours from last week and whatever from this week.

ml : me

01:09 am - it's TRUE !!

so adi on friday told me that Max was on "The Scholar" and i was like wth is "schollar? really ? that's cool ?" .. and of course i had to figure it out and here it is ..

so if any of you went to leadership camp in 8th grade he did the britney dance w//edgar and ryan .. i think ..
http://abc.go.com/primetime/scholar/bios/max.html

The sky is the limit for this high school senior from Oakland, California. With trouble and temptation right outside his front door, Max has managed to thrive in a place where many students fail. With an early admission to Columbia University in New York, Max feels confident that he is on his way to achieving his lifelong goal of garnering a top-drawer education and using it to give back to his community. Max is a vigilant, student with a 4.0 GPA and a curriculum that includes classes at the local community college to supplement his high school course work. The son of a highly regarded teacher/basketball coach, he is a well-rounded student, avid sports fan and admitted ladies' man. While he's most proud of his academic achievements Max is not shy about his ability to charm the girls.

GOOD LUCK TO HIM !!

01:12 am - cute

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09:27 pm

i am so shocked at how the yearbook came out .. there are so many things that i have noticed that just .. it's irritating and frustrating .. MY SENIOR AD HAS MORGAN LUTZ' PICTURES ON IT !! like wth ?! and i'm on the yearbook staff .. how could that happen ? atleast we got the baby pictures page to turn out okay ? and atleast two-three of my pages were decent .. i hate how my band page has many white spots and how everything is so pixelated .. it's funny how when we looked online at the pages things seemed to be okay .. KK is in their 2x while someone else is not even in there .. UGGH !! it sucks because that's that .. that's the yearbook .. i feel like so many people are disapointed and that the others should've gotten their act together atleast then maybe it wouldn't be so bad .. but what's done is done .. i was so upset while looking at it .. i was even more upset that my senior ad has someone else's face on it .. and ONLY 1 PICTURE OF ME IS ON IT !! it makes me sooo sad that it came out exactly how i did not want it .. i wish i would've just taken it and did it myself .. atleast then i would have nothing to complain about ..

i think the worst part about it is that ppl are probably going to put all the blame on 1 person .. and i'm hoping there isn't shit tomorrow .. but nothing could've been done .. the server was never updated and when it was .. all i can say is that they tried .. nothing else could've been done .. it makes me just as emotional as it does the next person .. but .. that's it .. it's the yearbook of the senior year .. despite the mistake it's the "autographs" from our friends that we will truly look back and read .. and those are what we will remember and appreciate the most .. unless your picture is everywhere and you participated in every club and sport then you'll have something more .. but that's beside the point ..

goodbye

btw ... yest. = 7 months ..

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